Well it is about to be January 1st 2008... wow. I cannot believe how fast this year has gone by! A lot has happened in just one year. It's been good. I decided to go through all the months and list at least one thing that happened.
January: I almost quit my job. Justin started the youth group at our church.
February: It was a sadder month. My aunt past away, and that was heartbreaking. But I did meet my good friend Jessica this month.
March: I went to Mexico on my first mission trip! I met a few people. And got to know some others pretty well.
April: Well I don't have anything for April.. nothing to excited must have happened. I did have to talk in front of a bunch of people about the Mission trips. Yipes.
May: We went to my friend Joshua's graduation. I went to a woman's conference with our church.
June: Our youth group has a awesome paintball game. And we went to the mountains with our youth group for a weekend.
July: We went to Mexico a second time! I got to know a couple of other people.
August: Us as a family went camping. Spent some time at the county fair... and I got my drivers permit.
September: Spent a interesting weekend with Jennifer and John. And found out something sad about a friend.
October: Spent a little time at the Eastern Fair. Went a bronc riding in Seymour Texas.
November: Spent my very first night alone. Went to the Amarillo ranch rodeo. And I fed the crew for the very first time. And got spacers.
December: Got my braces. Went to Mexico a third time. And... turned 16!
See haven't I had a interesting year? I got to go two awesome weeks and a weekend in Mexico. Met some really cool people. Don't get me wrong it hasn't been perfect. There has been some not so great stuff that went on. I've made plenty of mistakes. Had to deal with stupid drama. And numerous other things. But I got through them.
My relationship with Christ has grown this year, and that has been the best thing. I've learned about just how great His love for me is, how much He wants a relationship with me. How I am fearfully and wonderfully made. How I'd be nothing without Him, nothing at all. How I have to surrender everything over to Him. Doing my own thing just doesn't work out at all. He's has definitely been working on me this year. And I know He will continue too. There is more, so much more! It is exciting to think about.
But I do think about getting older. I just turned 16... It has finally started to sink in. People keep asking me if I feel different... well no not really. But whenever I think about it, it's just like.... dang. I'm 16! I will be 18 in two more years. Two more years that will probably fly by. I remember being a little kid and how I wanted to be older, couldn't wait to get older. It wasn't that I wanted to get older and leave the house. No I wanted to get older and stay home, never leave. Never get married. Ever. I mean c'mon boys were gross. I claimed that I would NEVER start liking boys. I liked it how it was. Where I could play with them. And we could have cake wars... and race... and all that other stuff. Never... right. Let's just say... I've come to hate that word. Stupid stupid word..... Anyways... now that I'm starting to get older I've decided I want to be younger again. Life was so simple. I could just play with my older brother and sister in the sandbox. And we could play ranch, of course Taylor had to always be the boss. And we played Laura Ingalls... and made zip lines... and threw cats off the hay stack in a parachute... that is other story to be told another time. We could play in the tree house...
It was just. Simple. Now... it's not. I'm not saying it is super complicated. But it is definitely more complicated then it used to be. Now I have to make stupid decisions. I don't like making decisions.... getting older is overrated....
It is just pretty crazy. And now.... another year is gone. I am another year older. But I am excited to see what the Lord has for me this year, and the next year, and the next year... and yeah ya'll get the point. Well it will be 12:00 soon... sooo................
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!
Adios 2007!! Hello 2008!!!!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house not a creature was stirring..not even a mouse...
Its Christmas Eve!!!! Yep. Hard to believe that tomorrow is Christmas!!!!
It was a pretty busy day. I had to work this morning. Ugh. I really didn't want too. I was hoping, really hoping that out of the kindness of her heart my boss would let me off. Just this one day... she obviously doesn't have any kindness in her heart. All the other ladies get off for like two weeks... I didn't want off two weeks. Just one measly little day. Is that to much to ask? I guess so. Oh well. So I dragged my poor pitiful, freezing cold body out of bed this morning. And dressed in tons of layers. It was so cold! And I was tired. We went to Texas Saturday, and came back Sunday, got home kind of late and I was tiiired. I piled on clothes, got my hot chocolate that my momma had prepared for me and went off to work! Yeahh it was cooold. But! I survived!
I finished up with my horses and came home. We ate a little bit. Then got busy. My mom had to do a lot of cooking. So I cleaned the bathroom, folded loads of laundry, wrapped quite a few presents, and made a cracker toffee thing... Mmmm.
Cleaning to bathroom was... not much fun. But who gets joy out of cleaning the bathroom? Nobody I know. And... folding laundry was... blah. Yeah that is a good word, blah. Haha. I've never been fond of folding laundry. Its not a hard task really, just not very enjoyable. Its like... sweeping the floor, and washing silverware, not hard. I just... don't like it. Wrapping presents, now that is something I like to do. Not totally sure why. Maybe cause then I know what everyone is getting :-) Hehe. And... making the cracker toffee. That isn't hard. All you do is lay saltines down in a pan lined with foil, then boil brown sugar, and butter, pour over the saltines, cook for like... 5 minutes, take out, sprinkle chocolate chips on the top. And when those melt then you spread it all around. Very good I say, very good. As I was laying the saltines down, I got almost the whole pan done and I realized I had forgotten to butter the pan... Oh phooey. So I had to take them all out again, butter the pan then re-do it. Phooey. Oh well.
Uhh... after I did that. I washed dishes, stirred cooking hamburger meat, and BBQ sauce... watched the potatoes. Then I got to eat. Mmmmm food.... Me and my daddy cleaned up the kitchen afterward. Then we just all sat down. Joshua came over for a bit :) then... he left. And now everyone else is sitting down. Watching... a... movie.
Well that has been my Christmas Eve. Not super exciting. I'm pretty tired though. So I believe I'll head to bed soon. Then Christmas will be here! not only that but my birthday. Yep that is right :) So..........................................
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
It was a pretty busy day. I had to work this morning. Ugh. I really didn't want too. I was hoping, really hoping that out of the kindness of her heart my boss would let me off. Just this one day... she obviously doesn't have any kindness in her heart. All the other ladies get off for like two weeks... I didn't want off two weeks. Just one measly little day. Is that to much to ask? I guess so. Oh well. So I dragged my poor pitiful, freezing cold body out of bed this morning. And dressed in tons of layers. It was so cold! And I was tired. We went to Texas Saturday, and came back Sunday, got home kind of late and I was tiiired. I piled on clothes, got my hot chocolate that my momma had prepared for me and went off to work! Yeahh it was cooold. But! I survived!
I finished up with my horses and came home. We ate a little bit. Then got busy. My mom had to do a lot of cooking. So I cleaned the bathroom, folded loads of laundry, wrapped quite a few presents, and made a cracker toffee thing... Mmmm.
Cleaning to bathroom was... not much fun. But who gets joy out of cleaning the bathroom? Nobody I know. And... folding laundry was... blah. Yeah that is a good word, blah. Haha. I've never been fond of folding laundry. Its not a hard task really, just not very enjoyable. Its like... sweeping the floor, and washing silverware, not hard. I just... don't like it. Wrapping presents, now that is something I like to do. Not totally sure why. Maybe cause then I know what everyone is getting :-) Hehe. And... making the cracker toffee. That isn't hard. All you do is lay saltines down in a pan lined with foil, then boil brown sugar, and butter, pour over the saltines, cook for like... 5 minutes, take out, sprinkle chocolate chips on the top. And when those melt then you spread it all around. Very good I say, very good. As I was laying the saltines down, I got almost the whole pan done and I realized I had forgotten to butter the pan... Oh phooey. So I had to take them all out again, butter the pan then re-do it. Phooey. Oh well.
Uhh... after I did that. I washed dishes, stirred cooking hamburger meat, and BBQ sauce... watched the potatoes. Then I got to eat. Mmmmm food.... Me and my daddy cleaned up the kitchen afterward. Then we just all sat down. Joshua came over for a bit :) then... he left. And now everyone else is sitting down. Watching... a... movie.
Well that has been my Christmas Eve. Not super exciting. I'm pretty tired though. So I believe I'll head to bed soon. Then Christmas will be here! not only that but my birthday. Yep that is right :) So..........................................
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
His Love
I've been going through Jeremiah. I came across a verse in chapter 3 verse 1.
"They say, 'If a man divorces his wife,
And she goes from him
And becomes another man's,
May he return to her again?'
Would not the land be greatly polluted?
But you have played the harlot with many lovers;
Yet return to Me," says the Lord.
I was thinking about the part that says Yet return to Me. How cool is it that even if we mess up, or fall away we can return to Him. He WANTS us too. He just loves us THAT much.
I also read in Lamentations. In 3:40-42
Let us search out and examine our ways, and turn back to the Lord;
Let us lift our hearts and hands to God in heaven. We have transgressed and rebelled;
You have not pardoned.
It says examine our ways and TURN back to the Lord. Just think about that. He allows us to come back to Him. He could say after we've messed up are fallen away "Okay I'm done with you. You messed up, you fell away. Now your finished, go away from Me." But He doesn't! He loves us so much that He wants us to be with Him. He wants us to return to Him.
He has patience that I cannot even understand. Why He loves us so much that He wants us to be with Him.... even after we've fallen away... I just cannot understand it. He stands there with arms opened wide welcoming us back. Wow!
I have terrible patience. I think after awhile I'd just be like. I'm done with you. Forget it.
Thanks goodness He doesn't do that with us... I don't know. I can't even... grasp it. My small little brain cannot wrap around it all.
Even if we fall away and go after... money... are... whatever. All the different stupid things we tend to follow after. He'll still welcome us back. Return to HIM.
It talks a lot in 1 John about abiding in Him. He abides in us, and us in Him. He loves us so much that He wants a personal relationship with us. He didn't just place us on this earth and have that be it. No He wants us to enter into Him.
Why would He love us that much? I have NO idea. We've sinned, we've fallen away, we've as it said in the verse, transgressed, and rebelled, we've done so many different things. Yet He stills loves us. It's amazing.... more then amazing! there is no words to describe it all.
I just sit here... trying to write out my feelings, trying to put it all into words. And I'm not doing a very good job of it.
How can I even put it into words?
His love is powerful
His love it amazing
His love is everlasting
His love is wonderful
His love is incredible.
I can write those things... but I just CANNOT describe it. I try too... but I just can't. It's just too wonderful. He loved us to much that He died for us. There is no greater love.
I'm so thankful that He does love me. Nobody else in this world could love me. But HE does. And that is the only love I need. I'm grateful that He is mindful of me. I am so unworthy. So very unworthy... We don't need to forget His love.
The song I'm listening too right now put it well. My heart is overflowing with His love.
Now that I'm done... attempting to spill out all I've been thinking about I'll end this post. G'Night all.
Don't forget how much He loves you.
"They say, 'If a man divorces his wife,
And she goes from him
And becomes another man's,
May he return to her again?'
Would not the land be greatly polluted?
But you have played the harlot with many lovers;
Yet return to Me," says the Lord.
I was thinking about the part that says Yet return to Me. How cool is it that even if we mess up, or fall away we can return to Him. He WANTS us too. He just loves us THAT much.
I also read in Lamentations. In 3:40-42
Let us search out and examine our ways, and turn back to the Lord;
Let us lift our hearts and hands to God in heaven. We have transgressed and rebelled;
You have not pardoned.
It says examine our ways and TURN back to the Lord. Just think about that. He allows us to come back to Him. He could say after we've messed up are fallen away "Okay I'm done with you. You messed up, you fell away. Now your finished, go away from Me." But He doesn't! He loves us so much that He wants us to be with Him. He wants us to return to Him.
He has patience that I cannot even understand. Why He loves us so much that He wants us to be with Him.... even after we've fallen away... I just cannot understand it. He stands there with arms opened wide welcoming us back. Wow!
I have terrible patience. I think after awhile I'd just be like. I'm done with you. Forget it.
Thanks goodness He doesn't do that with us... I don't know. I can't even... grasp it. My small little brain cannot wrap around it all.
Even if we fall away and go after... money... are... whatever. All the different stupid things we tend to follow after. He'll still welcome us back. Return to HIM.
It talks a lot in 1 John about abiding in Him. He abides in us, and us in Him. He loves us so much that He wants a personal relationship with us. He didn't just place us on this earth and have that be it. No He wants us to enter into Him.
Why would He love us that much? I have NO idea. We've sinned, we've fallen away, we've as it said in the verse, transgressed, and rebelled, we've done so many different things. Yet He stills loves us. It's amazing.... more then amazing! there is no words to describe it all.
I just sit here... trying to write out my feelings, trying to put it all into words. And I'm not doing a very good job of it.
How can I even put it into words?
His love is powerful
His love it amazing
His love is everlasting
His love is wonderful
His love is incredible.
I can write those things... but I just CANNOT describe it. I try too... but I just can't. It's just too wonderful. He loved us to much that He died for us. There is no greater love.
I'm so thankful that He does love me. Nobody else in this world could love me. But HE does. And that is the only love I need. I'm grateful that He is mindful of me. I am so unworthy. So very unworthy... We don't need to forget His love.
The song I'm listening too right now put it well. My heart is overflowing with His love.
Now that I'm done... attempting to spill out all I've been thinking about I'll end this post. G'Night all.
Don't forget how much He loves you.
Friday, December 14, 2007
Sugar cookies, and little brothers.
Yesterday was... a interesting day I guess you could say.
Well I did... what did I do in the morning... oh! work. Right. Yeah I went to work. Nothing to interesting happened there. I come home, eat some food. And my parents leave for town. To do some groceries shopping... and I think some Christmas shopping. Taylor was gone day working, so... that left me home with... NATHAN.
I had stuff that needed to be done. Clean the kitchen, bathroom, living room. And make sugar cookies. I had made the dough the day before so all I had to do was cut them out and cook 'em. Nathan got to bugging me around doing them. "Sara let's do the cookies."... I'd tell him AFTER I clean the house. But he still continued with the "Saaaarrraa can we pleeease do the cookies?" NO NATHAN. Gosh.
While I was cleaning the kitchen I had the dishwasher opened up. He got to bugging me about... something. I was telling him to get out of the kitchen and let me finish. He was walking backwards.... and he... well... fell over the dishwasher. And I... ran over and helped him up. Checking him for any bleeding... Uhhh... Well... I actually... errrr... uhhh... laughed at him. I was doubled over, trying to contain my laughter. Yeah it was just that funny. Are maybe it was just cause I'm easily amused. Ahem. So after he got up he got really ticked at me. Yelling at me saying it was all my fault and I made him do it, and that I shouldn't have been talking to him, and blah, blah, blah. Ummm. How was it MY fault? I was on the other end of the room. Standing there. Yes I was talking to him, but how did that make him fall over it... I don't understand how his mind works. We got into a fight about it. He got all emotional, went into the living room... and... blubbered. Gosh.
Well he was quite upset with me. And he kept on screaming at me that it was my fault... during all this I was on the phone with Caitlin (Sorry Caitlin) I kept asking him to go outside. Well he didn't want to go outside. I begged him to please go outside. For just a little while. And I told him I'd make the cookies after I got the house cleaned up, and he could come in and help me with them. I was trying to be reasonable. It didn't work. He was still madder then a wet hen at me. And just didn't care what I had to say. I did finally get him outside though. He went out at first and sat on the picnic table. Still crying. Then he left, I didn't see him for awhile. Then while I was rinsing off dishes he walked by in the yard, looked in the window and glared at me.
He came in at one time... still mad at me. Kicked me. Then I told him I was going to make the sugar cookies since he had acted like that. And so I got begged. He begged me ALL AFTERNOON. "Sara please, please. I was just playing. I didn't mean it." He at one time got down on his hands and knees begging. Finally after I just couldn't stand it anymore I told him if he'd do the chores, and clean the bathroom I would make the stinkin' cookies. I knew if I didn't do them then I would have to do them today. And I just didn't want to do that. So I made the cookies. He did the chores. And I thought he did the bathroom. But I walked in there and he hadn't done anything. Grrrrr. I did it myself.
Hey I did get 20 bucks though! Our neighbor off way behind our house is building a house and so there are sometimes people who go by taking stuff back there. Well at about... 4:30 this big huge white van pulled up. I went out there and they said told me who they were looking for. Robert, our neighbor. So I told them how to get back there. A little bit later they come back. Well they couldn't find it... gosh. So I told them I could lead them back there. When I said that the lady looked at me with big eyes and was like "You can!" uhhh... yeah. Do I not look capable of driving are what. So I hollered at Nathan and we loaded up in my dad's ranch pickup and off we went. Down the rocky, bumpy dirt road. I get them there. The lady thanks me, and gives me 20 bucks. Well thanks! I wave at Robert and we go back to the house. I make the sugar cookies, eat some supper. Talk to Caitlin on the phone... again. And crash.
Hmmm ya'll want to hear about today? Probably not but I'm going to tell ya'll about it anyway. It wasn't just super exciting. Me and my mom cleaned house this morning. We have family coming in this evening and tomorrow. So it needs to be clean... I'm not quite sure why though, the minute they get here its just going to turn into a disaster area again... oh well. I got to clean the living room and bathroom... I'm not to fond of cleaning to bathroom. But it has to be done. Something I really don't understand is why we have so many dang toothbrushes! I mean seriously. There is 5 of us in this house. We have 9 toothbrushes. 4 extra! Do two people in this family need 2 toothbrushes are what. Maybe so. So then they can brush one side of their mouth with one, and brush the other side with the other... maybe their being... smart... I just really don't understand..... ah well.
Later I load up with my two brothers and my papa and we go to a Christmas party! The people my dad work for have a "appreciation meal." every year for us employees. Oh fun. Squeezed in a single cab pickup with two brothers. While I'm sitting in between of them. Fun... fun. Nathan spends most of the time chattering... about... interesting things? nope. Nonsense, absolute nonsense. But you know what? after awhile he stopped talking. Yes he STOPPED talking. And there was.... silence. Wow. We arrive after a 30 minute drive. Eat some good food, talk to some peeps. Then we leave and go get some hay. We get halfway home and my dad remembers the tire he dropped off at the tire shop. He scolds us for not remembering. Oh wait. THEY scold ME. Hello. I wasn't the only one in the vehicle. What about Taylor and Nathan! gosh. So we have to go all the way back and get the tire. Then we come home! And I get to wrap presents. I'm the only one in this family that likes to wrap presents so I'm the one everyone comes to whenever they need stuff wrapped. I do it... but for a price. 50 bucks a package. I'm kidding, I'm kidding. I do it for free! cause I'm just that kind of a person ;) I really do like wrapping presents... I don't really know why though.... Oh right. I'M WEIRD.
Well I must go now. I know tears are probably running down ya'lls cheeks. And ya'll are saying "NO! Please don't end this wonderful post. Please!!!" I'm sorry! I must go! Farewell!
Well I did... what did I do in the morning... oh! work. Right. Yeah I went to work. Nothing to interesting happened there. I come home, eat some food. And my parents leave for town. To do some groceries shopping... and I think some Christmas shopping. Taylor was gone day working, so... that left me home with... NATHAN.
I had stuff that needed to be done. Clean the kitchen, bathroom, living room. And make sugar cookies. I had made the dough the day before so all I had to do was cut them out and cook 'em. Nathan got to bugging me around doing them. "Sara let's do the cookies."... I'd tell him AFTER I clean the house. But he still continued with the "Saaaarrraa can we pleeease do the cookies?" NO NATHAN. Gosh.
While I was cleaning the kitchen I had the dishwasher opened up. He got to bugging me about... something. I was telling him to get out of the kitchen and let me finish. He was walking backwards.... and he... well... fell over the dishwasher. And I... ran over and helped him up. Checking him for any bleeding... Uhhh... Well... I actually... errrr... uhhh... laughed at him. I was doubled over, trying to contain my laughter. Yeah it was just that funny. Are maybe it was just cause I'm easily amused. Ahem. So after he got up he got really ticked at me. Yelling at me saying it was all my fault and I made him do it, and that I shouldn't have been talking to him, and blah, blah, blah. Ummm. How was it MY fault? I was on the other end of the room. Standing there. Yes I was talking to him, but how did that make him fall over it... I don't understand how his mind works. We got into a fight about it. He got all emotional, went into the living room... and... blubbered. Gosh.
Well he was quite upset with me. And he kept on screaming at me that it was my fault... during all this I was on the phone with Caitlin (Sorry Caitlin) I kept asking him to go outside. Well he didn't want to go outside. I begged him to please go outside. For just a little while. And I told him I'd make the cookies after I got the house cleaned up, and he could come in and help me with them. I was trying to be reasonable. It didn't work. He was still madder then a wet hen at me. And just didn't care what I had to say. I did finally get him outside though. He went out at first and sat on the picnic table. Still crying. Then he left, I didn't see him for awhile. Then while I was rinsing off dishes he walked by in the yard, looked in the window and glared at me.
He came in at one time... still mad at me. Kicked me. Then I told him I was going to make the sugar cookies since he had acted like that. And so I got begged. He begged me ALL AFTERNOON. "Sara please, please. I was just playing. I didn't mean it." He at one time got down on his hands and knees begging. Finally after I just couldn't stand it anymore I told him if he'd do the chores, and clean the bathroom I would make the stinkin' cookies. I knew if I didn't do them then I would have to do them today. And I just didn't want to do that. So I made the cookies. He did the chores. And I thought he did the bathroom. But I walked in there and he hadn't done anything. Grrrrr. I did it myself.
Hey I did get 20 bucks though! Our neighbor off way behind our house is building a house and so there are sometimes people who go by taking stuff back there. Well at about... 4:30 this big huge white van pulled up. I went out there and they said told me who they were looking for. Robert, our neighbor. So I told them how to get back there. A little bit later they come back. Well they couldn't find it... gosh. So I told them I could lead them back there. When I said that the lady looked at me with big eyes and was like "You can!" uhhh... yeah. Do I not look capable of driving are what. So I hollered at Nathan and we loaded up in my dad's ranch pickup and off we went. Down the rocky, bumpy dirt road. I get them there. The lady thanks me, and gives me 20 bucks. Well thanks! I wave at Robert and we go back to the house. I make the sugar cookies, eat some supper. Talk to Caitlin on the phone... again. And crash.
Hmmm ya'll want to hear about today? Probably not but I'm going to tell ya'll about it anyway. It wasn't just super exciting. Me and my mom cleaned house this morning. We have family coming in this evening and tomorrow. So it needs to be clean... I'm not quite sure why though, the minute they get here its just going to turn into a disaster area again... oh well. I got to clean the living room and bathroom... I'm not to fond of cleaning to bathroom. But it has to be done. Something I really don't understand is why we have so many dang toothbrushes! I mean seriously. There is 5 of us in this house. We have 9 toothbrushes. 4 extra! Do two people in this family need 2 toothbrushes are what. Maybe so. So then they can brush one side of their mouth with one, and brush the other side with the other... maybe their being... smart... I just really don't understand..... ah well.
Later I load up with my two brothers and my papa and we go to a Christmas party! The people my dad work for have a "appreciation meal." every year for us employees. Oh fun. Squeezed in a single cab pickup with two brothers. While I'm sitting in between of them. Fun... fun. Nathan spends most of the time chattering... about... interesting things? nope. Nonsense, absolute nonsense. But you know what? after awhile he stopped talking. Yes he STOPPED talking. And there was.... silence. Wow. We arrive after a 30 minute drive. Eat some good food, talk to some peeps. Then we leave and go get some hay. We get halfway home and my dad remembers the tire he dropped off at the tire shop. He scolds us for not remembering. Oh wait. THEY scold ME. Hello. I wasn't the only one in the vehicle. What about Taylor and Nathan! gosh. So we have to go all the way back and get the tire. Then we come home! And I get to wrap presents. I'm the only one in this family that likes to wrap presents so I'm the one everyone comes to whenever they need stuff wrapped. I do it... but for a price. 50 bucks a package. I'm kidding, I'm kidding. I do it for free! cause I'm just that kind of a person ;) I really do like wrapping presents... I don't really know why though.... Oh right. I'M WEIRD.
Well I must go now. I know tears are probably running down ya'lls cheeks. And ya'll are saying "NO! Please don't end this wonderful post. Please!!!" I'm sorry! I must go! Farewell!
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